maybe you should think about the nature of life. it's not guaranteed. i can spend all day crying about the unfairness of life, but that ain't going to change what it is.

as to the autism, you might want to remember that it's entirely possible for me to be autistic and still be smarter than you. might even care more about people than you do, but it if it's beyond my ability to control what happens to them, what am i supposed to do? get pissed off and aggravated about life being unfair?